Jasmine 0 Posted June 12, 2013 For as long as I could remember, I would act out or be aggressive towards myself in order to make people realize that I have issues. I would self-destruct. I just got news from the board of education that I might be put back in a regular school. I was already in a regular school and got dismissed for continuous self-harm and suicidal ideation. If I get put back in regular school, I swear, I'm tearing things up. They have to put me in a therapeutic school. I can't handle regular school. I need to be educated in an environment where I feel safe and understood. If I can't be in a place like that I'll revert back to cutting. I don't want to. WHY CAN'T THIS SCREWED UP WORLD UNDERSTAND THAT EVEN IF I'M WELL-BEHAVED, I AM FACING HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
rmartin 0 Posted June 18, 2013 why not try home schooling I know they got online classes your school might be able to set you up with I know that's what I did when I was in the 11th grade and that was like 5 years ago. so try looking into that. they should have homeschooling with the computer online or in my case a teacher from the school came to my house and I did home schooling like that it was for like 2 hours. with the teacher coming to my house. got a lot of home work though. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Jasmine 0 Posted June 19, 2013 Due to certain circumstances that is not an option. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Destine 0 Posted June 19, 2013 Hi Jasmine, it sounds like to me you need attention. We all do, but it sounds like you harm yourself to bring the focus onto you. Do you know why you started doing this?Look up in the old testament about the prophets of Baal, cutting originated from them.Elijah tested their religion, they became ashamed because their God did not show up.So, they cut themselves to release an emotional sacrifice to their God. Maybe this might help you: Your body belongs to God(1 corninthians 6:19) when you cut yourself your actually cutting God's body. God made you unique, smart, beautiful. He also placed the need of attention into your heart. I remember you saying you like theatre and movies. Maybe try to write a plot or a thesis weekly and present it to your mom or some of your friends. This way, you'll be getting healthy attention. I will be praying for discernment conceding your schooling.Lord I lift up Jasmine, your word tells us in Isaiah 50:4 that you anoint us with the tongue of the learn it. We bind every spirit of oppression, self harm, witchcraft, torment, lying, violence and curse it at it's root and send it back to hell where it belongs. Jasmine is a woman of God, who will complete her education with no mental or physical setbacks. We bind every toiling spirit, every spirit of darkness we cast you out right noe into the sea. Jasmine's emotions are not in control of her, but her spirit is in control. We ask for peace according to phill. 4:7. I bind every retaliating revenge anger seeking spirit and send it to hell right now. We cover my family, as well as jasmine's in the blood of Jesus.We release this by faith!In Jesus name,Amen Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Cholette 0 Posted June 19, 2013 Destine wrote:Hi Jasmine, it sounds like to me you need attention. We all do, but it sounds like you harm yourself to bring the focus onto you. Do you know why you started doing this?Look up in the old testament about the prophets of Baal, cutting originated from them.Elijah tested their religion, they became ashamed because their God did not show up.So, they cut themselves to release an emotional sacrifice to their God. Maybe this might help you: Your body belongs to God(1 corninthians 6:19) when you cut yourself your actually cutting God's body. God made you unique, smart, beautiful. He also placed the need of attention into your heart. I remember you saying you like theatre and movies. Maybe try to write a plot or a thesis weekly and present it to your mom or some of your friends. This way, you'll be getting healthy attention. I will be praying for discernment conceding your schooling.Lord I lift up Jasmine, your word tells us in Isaiah 50:4 that you anoint us with the tongue of the learn it. We bind every spirit of oppression, self harm, witchcraft, torment, lying, violence and curse it at it's root and send it back to hell where it belongs. Jasmine is a woman of God, who will complete her education with no mental or physical setbacks. We bind every toiling spirit, every spirit of darkness we cast you out right noe into the sea. Jasmine's emotions are not in control of her, but her spirit is in control. We ask for peace according to phill. 4:7. I bind every retaliating revenge anger seeking spirit and send it to hell right now. We cover my family, as well as jasmine's in the blood of Jesus.We release this by faith!In Jesus name,AmenSo proud of you Destine!!! This is an AWESOME post!!! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Destine 0 Posted June 20, 2013 Oh thank you so much Ms.cholette! I will be studying for youth ministry/counseling this fall. I don't want to see anyone going down a road that is not from God! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
astra 0 Posted June 20, 2013 It's all good points that were brought up above. I just wanted to add what I think is very important when overcoming things like that.I have learned that behind every negative (or wrong) behavior that we are trying fight against there is a wrong belief.Therefore we can call the behaviour - a FRUIT and the wrong belief (aka stronghold) - a ROOT.What is very typical for people (even Christians) is to try and eradicate the fruit. This is a fight that can't be effectively and consistently won because unless the root is removed it will keep on bringing forth its fruit over and over and over. A person will get weary and quit sooner or later.I do believe that we should direct our efforts towards the root and with prayer and diligence, the Holy Spirit's guidance, we can get to the very bottom of the cause and deal with it effectively.You might need to keep digging and digging deeper as the Lord sheds His light on this matter. This is definitely a process and I would not expect it to be fixed over night, but you CAN DO IT, Jasmine! God is with you and nothing or no one can stop you.Blessings!! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
