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Post by Angelique on Tue Jan 04, 2011 12:08 am

Been struggling my whole life with slipping into "turtle" mode when I am hurt, vulnerable or offended. I have known it is not what God wanted for me but never realized the cost; never knew why He called it doing the "Turtle", until recently. Went from a long glorious season of serving, sowing, reaping and glory to glory, to a season of being stripped bare and isolated; knowing all along that it was my fathers hand that was doing it... Something about new wine in old wine skins ;)

Sooo anyway... 9 months later breakthrough comes and revelation begins to flow like sweet wine. He immediately begins speaking to me about His Kingdom, walking me through the armor of God in Eph 6 all over again. Like a brand new baby. It was so rich. Morning after morning hand feeding me scriptures and teaching me where I was in each passage and where He was wanting to take me. One morning I awoke after a dream about searching in a box full of crowns and crowning my husband with different crowns, but none of them were right. They were not the real crown... and I knew it. I couldn't find the real crown to place on his head. With each one he would just look at me and scrunch up his face (Kinda like Paul Rudd) as if to say "Iiiii dont think so". It was kind of funny but also frustrating as I really wanted to give him the most precious and beautiful crown I could. Anyway... (I digress) I woke up to Him speaking "Elijah, Elijah, Elijah". So I ask, as I do every morning, "What are we going to read today Lord?". I ask through the resounding "Elijah" refrain ringing in my ears. Yea.... I never said I was bright. Pretty sure He was thinking of me when He wrote 1 Cor 1:27 - 29 " But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. 28 God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him." So when I finally clear the slumber from my head and "aha!" discover that He is saying to read about Elijah I then try to remember where Elijah's story begins. I remember my dream.. crowns.... Kings!! I open my Bible to 1 Kings 18 "Elijah on Mt Carmel". I turn back one page and it is my study Bibles Personality Profile on Elijah. I read it, I read Elijah's story all the way through noting what God is pointing out and then go back to dig a little deeper. (Stick with me here... I promise I am going somewhere with this! We are about to get back to the turtle!)

Under Elijah's profile two things jumped off the page. One was that his most amazing and miraculous accomplishment wasn't Mt Carmel as some might think, but rather the intimate relationship that he had developed with God; and Secondly that his biggest mistakes were isolating himself from other believers & then running away in fear. I had never realized just how much Elijah and I had in common. Elijah was a turtle too!

The next night I have my dream about caring for a bunch of babies. For the sake of time I'll not go into it here. God continues to build upon yesterdays lesson taking me the next day to Matt Ch 18. Teaching me about being child-like, the responsibility of caring for the children (hello dream), and the power of forgiveness. Here's where it really starts getting good! Matt 18: 15 - 35 is all about the Forgiveness! He shows me to not run away and cut off relationships when I am hurt or offended but to instead seek to restore relationship according to the Spirit of God and so participate in the Kingdom of God. (Again reiterating to me that we are subjects of the Kingdom of Heaven and not subject to the ruler of this world) He reveals that the Spirit of this world would tempt us to walk away from difficult relationships or from confronting offenses and instead nurse our wounds in private, isolating ourselves (separating from the body... division) one relationship at a time, destroying our ability to trust and hardening our hearts.

Or perhaps we choose to lash out in anger and hurt in return for hurt, giving way to our "rights" to stand up for ourselves, feeding our pride and independence - further separating us from our dependence on Him and the humility of His Spirit - resulting in the same isolation (division), bitterness and lack of trust.

Or Maybe we choose the less dramatic but more deceptive and manipulative method of playing the victim, spreading gossip under the guise of seeking prayer and counsel while never really pursuing restoration of relationship but rather seeking justification of our offense and unforgiveness. Which not only causes the aforementioned hardening of heart, lack of trust and isolation but also contributes to feeding a Spirit of Division within the body of Christ.... causing others to participate in your sin. Eeeoouuuch!

As subjects of the Kingdom of God we are to pursue peace and unity, humbling ourselves and seeking restoration and reconciliation no matter what the offense. That we should respond from our Spirit and not react in from our flesh. Or put another way participating in the divine nature as opposed to our human (sin) nature. Respond in the power and love of the Spirit He put within us - tapping into and releasing the Kingdom of Heaven here on earth. When we walk in unity, focused on His Kingdom and not ours, we create an atmosphere where He will dwell and walk with us; we invite the Kingdom of God here on earth as it is in heaven! We invite his power, healing, love, peace, joy, provision, hope, vision... Here we have unhindered access to the very throne of God to actively participate in changing our world through prayer! Forgiveness is a powerful gate to the Kingdom of God and all that it holds. Jesus knew that... What looks and feels like defeat is many times the ultimate victory!

When we behave as subjects of this world we hinder the Kingdom of God and harm those we love, even can cause some of his other children to stumble.. We create division when we are only focused on self protection. He then showed me how I personally had participated in the spirit of this world creating division and causing pain to people as I withdrew my attentions and affections in my attempts at self preservation. He broke my heart as He revealed the high price of doing the turtle! I immediately asked for forgiveness for all that He showed me and asked that He show me where I needed to seek restoration and reconciliation where I had sinned, hurt or caused broken unity. I asked for forgiveness for participating in and exalting any kingdom other than HIS!

He then showed me a visual of why He called it "Turtle". Like a turtle retreats pulling in his head... we stop interacting... we separate and keep conversations surface in an effort to prevent further injury. Pretty soon we pull in our arms completely shutting down our serving others and reaching out to others. Before you know it... you have your legs pulled in now and you are not walking at all. You are "dead in the water" so to speak. So doing the Turtle kills your walk and hinders others.

So to all my fellow Turtles out there... Let's let the Holy Spirit bring the conviction and revelation necessary to transform us into the eagles God has called us to be! Following the example of our Savior who for the joy set before him bore the sin and shame of the cross, forgiving all of our sins and opening wide that gate to the Kingdom of God that we now walk through. Let us be true to the name Christ - ians. Let us be peacemakers willing to sacrifice all of the flesh for the sake of unity & forgiveness. Peacemakers who will reap a harvest of righteousness! Let's stop being subjects of and to the kingdom of this world and begin participating in the divine nature of God; walking in and as a blessing as Subjects of the Kingdom of Heaven; manifesting His Kingdom here on earth.

Hope this translates from my heart to yours and brings encouragement and freedom for you as it did for me. Sorry it's so long!! I tried to keep it as short as possible!



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Re: Turtle No More!

Post by Virtuous on Tue Jan 04, 2011 6:50 am

Ooooooookaaaaaaaaaaaay, Lord...I hear you!
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Thanks for sharing, a_ehat.
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Post by Mia Sherwood on Tue Jan 04, 2011 11:22 am

lol! :praiseg-d:

Thanks for sharing, E.


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Post by daphanie02 on Tue Jan 11, 2011 3:11 pm

AMEN!!!
OOOOOOH thats good stuff! I can totally relate to the turtle syndrome! That was right on and very timely. I've just finished an in depth study on Elijah. Thanks for that!


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Re: Turtle No More!

Post by Deborah on Wed Jan 12, 2011 9:16 pm

I read this post this morning and I've been pondering it all day.

Tonight I watched a movie about a famous American runner, Steve Prefontaine. The character who played Steve said in movie the secret to winning a race is knowing you can endure more pain than anyone else.

I think this ties together with what you said because why did Elijah flee? He fled because he was tired and scared. He was a afraid of the pain (her name was Jezebel). If we're afraid of the pain, then it can control us.

One last point. Peacemakers aren't peace keepers. Peacemaking is not about being a doormat, accepting peace at any cost (which is never peace anyway).
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Post by daphanie02 on Wed Jan 12, 2011 9:24 pm

Ive been pondering this all day as well. What this did for me was hold up a mirror because i've never realized thats exactly what i have become...a turtle! I havent read in the bible that Elijah secluded himself but a scripture that came to mind was about shining your light before men and not hiding your light. I guess people who are afraid of the world and seclude themselves would be doing just that. This post definately ministered to me! Thanks again!


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Post by daphanie02 on Wed Jan 12, 2011 9:35 pm

Oh and Deborah, our pastor was preaching on the life of Elijah as well. One thing that he said that stuck out to me was that Elijah was living under a threat. He compared people who live under constant threat of forclosure, divorce, and death to where Elijah was threatened by Jezebel...but nothing ever happened. If we are constantly fearing threats, it builds up into depression (where Elijah asked God to kill him) :beammeup: Depression can definately control us into making a train wreck of what God is trying to do in our lives...something the devil is very good at if we allow fear of his threats and pain to control us. :getthee:


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Post by daphanie02 on Wed Jan 12, 2011 9:41 pm

Deborah wrote:
One last point. Peacemakers aren't peace keepers. Peacemaking is not about being a doormat, accepting peace at any cost (which is never peace anyway).

AMEN! Like In 2 kings where Jehu (the newly annointed King of Isreal) has the 70 sons of ahab beheaded. He was a Peacemaker that was making peace at all costs. Ahab was married to Jezebel and the offspring of Ahab would have been setting up idols all over the place. Sometimes God calls us to do some pretty difficult things. Like letting go of relationships that might hurt, but its for that greater goal of holiness :)


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Post by Angelique on Mon Jan 17, 2011 6:00 pm

All true! I think the bottom line is when we are more focused on Self than the Savior nothing good will come it! duh Sometimes that is so much harder than it sounds! LOL! crying
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Post by Grey Butterfly on Wed Aug 31, 2011 10:41 pm

daphanie02 wrote: ...a scripture that came to mind was about shining your light before men and not hiding your light. I guess people who are afraid of the world and seclude themselves would be doing just that...

God has been speaking to me about shining my light this week. Thanks for this post Angelique :o) I was already paying attention and being ministered to by your post, but as I read through the comments and saw that you had put the "light verse" in Laura, it just made me sit up and take notice LOL.

Thanks :o) Diane


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Post by Dove-Solutions on Thu Sep 01, 2011 4:19 am

Boy why didn't I see this earlier. Awesome Stuff here! I have so been the turtle! I am free from that now. Praise God! Amen!

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Post by hind'sfeet on Thu Sep 01, 2011 7:32 am

I just read that for the first time today too! Thank you for replying to it Connie!
I am the turtle right now. I want to be free from being a turtle. I have a turtle issue I'm up against right now.
God used your post to speak to me too. Thank you Father!
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